What if it worked out…

Exactly how you imagined it, or greater. Entertain that thought. Someone posed that question to me and I struggled to find the answer.

I’m not a pessimist, more of a realist. I’ve had life experiences that have made me not expect everything to work out how I imagined it. I’m blessed in so many ways but certain things have not come to fruition that make me put up walls. It’s obviously not a good trait but I try to avoid disappointment. In the process I tend to put up walls or refrain from taking big risks. When the bad things happen then I can say “I told you so “

Running is one area where I take the risk and have had good results. I have successfully run 5 marathons. Although my times were not always as I wanted I have been able to complete them. I remember thinking that the first one would never happen and the glee that I had when it did. On long runs I will picture myself crossing the finish line. I set realistic goals for my race times, being smart enough to know what my body can do. I imagined it and it worked out.

I’m not sure why I can’t translate this to other parts of my life. My guess is that I knew disappointment early on. I sometimes think that what I am imagining is pie-in-the-sky. I’m not thinking “Imagine winning the lottery”; more like “Imagine getting that job that you want” or “Imagine finding someone to fall in love with “. Maybe if these things happen then something bad will also happen, like a see-saw needing to be in balance.

What do you imagine? What if it were greater than that?

Phew, that was deep