May Days

A bit behind

May 2

7th Grade: [friends’ brother] committed suicide today. He was 18. It is so sad. I’m so depressed.

Ugh, that was tough. I remember being told and I called my friends to discuss. Such a terrible loss and it’s so hard to explain to kids that things will get better. I still think of this guy and what a tragedy it was.

May 3

7th: [friends] were really sad today

I didn’t know if other kids should be told. Some knew. I remember trying to keep it lightheaded and real for them. I was dealing with my own grief and had some understanding.

May 4

7th: mom got in an accident in front of wake

Yeah, that happened. It was awful, ‘nuff said

May 5

7th: [funeral] mass really depressing.

There is so much more to say but a funeral of a child, someone whose parents are still alive, is just awful.

I do wish that I wrote more about this. I remember how awful it all was; the death and the accident (so much more to that). It was a low day in a year with the lowest days. I recently saw a movie where a child was losing a parent, I wanted to hug that child so much. Childhood tragedy is tough and thinking about it as an adult I am so sad for that little girl. I have been tasked with writing a letter to her and I will soon.

Next time will be less tragic and 5th grade me is back.